Reflect

Reflect

75 days later, I sit in the second to last train I hope to take in a long time (thanks to 36, 11, and 15 hour trips).

The route:
Santiago – Atlanta – Madrid – Istanbul – Abu Dhabi – Dubai – Madrid – Rotterdam – Utrecht – Amsterdam – The Hague – Paris – Reims – Rotterdam – Frankfurt – Berlin – Copenhagen – Prague – Vienna – Zagreb – Plitvice Lakes – Ljubjana – Venice – Verona – Roma – Cinque Terre – Milan – Como – Argentiere/ Chamonix – Barcelona
Now, on my way to Malaga.
These past months, not just the two I’ve been traveling, but the whole gap year, have been some of the most memorable of my life, helping me grow as a person, perhaps more than ever. I’ve experienced so much, lived a lot, and enjoyed every single moment. Each day has brought me things I didn’t expect. Every day had endless possibilities, and I had the freedom to decide where to go whenever I wanted.
After this trip, some of the thoughts I had intensified to their maximum, to the point were they are ideas I want to live up to.
– You decide whether you’ll live in heaven or hell. Heaven and hell happen here, in this life, so it’s up to you to live in heaven.
– Treat others as you want to be treated.
– You can’t be sorry for what you feel and if you have to say what you feel for the peace of your mind say it.
(In the past, something that often happened to me was that after saying my feelings or what      I thought, I would feel bad for thinking I’d said too much.)
– Happinness is a journey, not a destination.
– How sad it is to be fake.
My insecurities are gone and I now listen to myself over anyone. I’ve improved the way in which I take decisions, although it is still hard, but having to make a new decision every day has trained me to decide better and faster. Although I’m still unclear of many things, I believe in my power and potential to get to wherever I want. Everybody has problems, but they are theirs and you can’t blame them for having them. I don’t kill myself overthinking anymore, because I’ve realized how nature makes everything unfold perfectly. I’ve discovered the importance in my life of going out of my comfort zone.
I appreciate my life too much, and reached a point in which I feel rich. I’ve had a grasp of what it feels like to be in harmony with myself and the rest of the world. My only aim now is to be able to sustain that feeling forever, and not just have a grasp of it.
Hiking through the forests and snow of Chamonix (the last place I stayed at for a long time), I just kept on telling myself, “wow man, I am ready to die,” but actually, I’m less ready than ever because I saw the endless new experiences someone can have. There’s so much more than I could imagine could happen that I can only desire more days to live.
This time has made me appreciate my friends and family 10 hikes up to Lac Blanc more.
This last one is hard to explain but, I’ve figured out the individuality of life, the personal side everyone has. I mean, everyone has their own life even if they are married, everyone is an individual who has the capacity to think as much as they can. This has made me realize the tremendous power a person has over another with the things they tell them or the way they act towards them, but at the same time the tiny influence you can have on a person. Every person I’ve ever met has impacted me.
I heard and understood Chris Mccandless words clearly: happinness is only real when shared. My life would not be the same without the people that have been part of it, and traveling is most amazing because of the people you meet, not the places you see. There’s times to be accompanied, and there’s times to be alone. I know the people that I want in my life, and have learned to stay away from things that only pull me down, and that sometimes you can only act for your own self-interest.
My top reason for liking theater used to be that it gave me the possibility to live the life of someone else, to experience what they experience, because I have an urge to understand the way different people act. It still is, but now I know that listening to others and feeling for them gives me that same feel.
I’ve realized how short and fragile life is, but how perfect that time can be if you listen to yourself. That that time is enough to live in 20 countries and meet millions of people.
The thought that overwhelms me is thinking that many of the people I’ve met throughout my life will never appear again in my road, or if they do, that it’s not the same. What scares me is to get older.
I’m still the same person I have always been, except I now have more knowledge and experience than I used to, and have gotten closer to finding myself.
Map of the Route
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Published byColomba Dumay Neder

My name is Colomba and I was born in Santiago, Chile. Although I love Chile for its landscapes and for hosting my roots, I will always have the urge to get away and discover the rest of the world. Accompanied by photography, I will be showing what I see, and creating beauty to my eyes. I will be writing exactly what comes out of my conscience because to me it makes sense, and hopefully it will to you too. I'll try my best to explain what I mean, because if I am sure of what I'm trying to say, I can for sure convey it. This blog will be about my journey (physical and spiritual) through life.